But who really keeps to what they say?
I'm adapting to the poly lifestyle, but sadly to say, i am not contented.
It is going to be a year since i once stepped out of secondary school and came into poly.
Much has changed in this one year's time. And I have seen many other types of people that are not commonly seen in secondary school.
Ask me again if i ever regretted choosing poly, and i would tell you no.
Why? I can't answer you now. But i know i am right to follow my guts.
After numerous illnesses, i'm starting to feel scared.
There are still many other things that i haven't try off.
And i definitely do not want to end my life so fast.
Nevertheless, I always feel that the night is lonely.
When there is no one to accompany, or to voice out to,
the feeling is terrible.
I would really wish to have someone whom i can turn to when i am always down,
and i need some spare time off for heart-to-heart talks.
I may not be good in speaking, but i would prefer someone to start the topic and get into the mood.
Whats the point talking so much while the other person is giggling away?
It just makes me feel horrible.
However, i do not want to appear as a pest to the people i talk to, over to become over-reliant,
and thus, i tend to push them away sometimes.
Sometimes in the night i really ponder. If i could change my life, how would i change it?
And when i changed it, would i really be happy?
Cheers,
Kenneth.
To baby,
Sorry for my attitude today and everything.
Couldn't kept my cool again and went crazy.
Guess i am being paranoid again plus the fact that i did not slept well.
Sorry. Forgive me alrights?
posted by Kenneth Tan @ 4:53 AM
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