You know, I've been telling myself to update this blog often and whatsoever, but sometimes, when you just dont feel like doing it, you don't. Its as simple as that.
And there are times where you feel like ranting, and this is the best place to rant.
Since after idk how long, no one's been here. Thus it should be just me and myself then.
Laughs. Saw some things that really made me felt kinda sad but at the same time, knowing that its already the past. All i want to do now is to really get a good result, and forget about the past. Easier said than done. Who doesn't want to be loved? Haha. Maybe, just maybe someone would come along the way.
I would be waiting. (:
Kenneth.
Feel like crying like what. At 7am in the morning?
Great.
I'm kind of in a state where i really dk what to do anymore.
You havent been giving me clear signs,
and im just about clueless here trying to live my everyday life, happily. (Ya, sure. -.-)
Its just kinda hard to explain everything in words how i feel,
somehow hope people can understand.
Hmm. Last week had been a long and tiring week.
At least thats over, but more to come.
I want to go Uni!
Cmon, buck up Kenneth!
With my current GPA now. Gah.
Been really trying to find someone to pour everything out.
Like what my lecturer say, she can feel some disappointment and anger among us.
Which i find it true, but not only in school i guess.
To be honest, im thinking about it every single day.
Who am I to you now?
Its kinda hard to bluff my way thru and be happy.
Its still something my heart cares about much.
Blogging so much, also wonder who actually bothers to read.
Just here again to rant my feelings to myself as usual.
Hmm.
Guess that says it all..
Not that its hard to trust you or whatsoever.
You said you are busy.
Yet you were on facebook and twitter and everything.
Till you cant even reply a sms to me. Are you really busy to that extend?
Or you just plainly forgot about me.
Can see that you were clearly waiting for someone else's text.
That should send me a signal to tell me to fcuk off from your life alr..
Yeah.. Thanks..?
OIIIIIIIIIIII .
OIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII .SEE YOUR TAGBOARD PLEASE AND TY :D .
LOLOLOLOL.
Hehs. Guess what. I bought my btt book alr!
7 dollars hor. Not cheap please.
Counting on the fact that i still want to buy clothes, and buy alot of other things!
Registering for my btt tomorrow, like a finally.
Maybe head down to bugis later? See how.
Yawns. Feeling quite tired to be exact.
Dk why is there a need to hide things from me.
Aiya.
Nvmmmmmm. I got to change anyways,
and dont take things so hard.
I mean, i guess sooner or later everyone is going to get sick of me.
So might as well.
Having this irritating headache again. Been on and on for weeks or even for months already.
Don't really think its the lack of slp, but cause i am suffering from migraine.
I'm still struggling within myself to find some answers.
But now, aiya heck. Play first! :D
Anyways, i realized that most of my blog posts are about you.
And im calling a radio. And im falling aslp.
Seriously, how i envy my friend.
Well, he is those type that dont care about his gf's emotion or even bother about her feelings and goes arnd flirting.
End of the day, even if they argue, the gf says a iloveyou on his wall and he takes them like they are for granted.
Gosh, how i wish this would happen to me! Lols!
Aiya, i should stop daydreaming, lols!
Off to my bed~ (:
Tell me now..
Was what i said correct?
It seems logical.
Thats the best way..right?
I cant think of anymore possible ways to solve it.
To let her be happy right?
Thats what i want isn't it.
C'mon Kenneth.
Its your time to sacrifice something for her, you useless idiot.
Even if it means hurting yourself, again.
Can't believe i fell for the second time.
Or should i put it that, i havent even forgotten about her in the first place.
Yea, thinking about losing her a second time, or holding another guy's hand or even talking to another guy is kinda sucky, but i guess, its a right choice to make.
So that she wont feel so suffocated and wont be sandwiched between me and her family.
Haven't been really smiling or laughing recently.
Thinking of just closing myself for a few days or weeks.
Being un-contactable to everyone.
To find myself perhaps.
Or to find out where i'm going exactly.
Maybe, from tomorrow ba.
After going out..
我是你的守护者
无论你在世界的任何角落
我会永远的守护在你身边.
This last tune, i sang with a fullstop.
