I WANT GO K. (lol!)
Exams are over! LIKE FINALLY! :D
INTSEV, POA, STATS. BYES! :D
At least i found all the exam papers manageable. Hope i dont ever see them again!
Time really flies.
I am going to be a senior soon! haha!
Year one is coming to a close.
Year two is coming with a loud bang.
I need to do even better this time round!
To end things up. Monday eh guys! haha! :D
P.S. Hun, ILY! :D
Regards,
Kenneth.
I thought friends are suppose to be there when you need them?
I thought friends are there when you are down and couldn't get back on your feet?
So why do i feel so left out?
Idk. I know i ain't cool, and happy all the times.
I know i ain't the sporty, and the one that always keeps the mood high.
So does that mean i should be left out?
I really dont know. What did i really do wrong?
Argh. Fk the loneliness.
Kenneth.
I will learn, how to let go, when that day comes..
Did a quiz on fb today. Found it quite interesting in fact.
The quiz. Was really accurate. And the sentence that really shook me.
Even to now, was this.
"You are most afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble".
I find this really true. After what i have just posted yest.
I know i am afraid of failure. Thats why i always push myself so hard.
I cant accept things so easily.
Troubles.
I am sure everyone have them. And need to go thru them.
But for me. Its hard for me to overcome them.
Be it a small or big problem. I will find it hard.
I dont know how i am suppose to react with the problems i have on hand now.
I dont know how to overcome it. I really dk how am i going to face that hurdle.
I may just trip on it and fall. I really dont know.
Few months? Idk will it even come up to years. Who knows.
Blame me for thinking too much.
Blame me for tearing too much.
Sorry. I cant help it.
The way how i see things are going,
it ain't going to be positive.
Idk how is this story gonna end.
Maybe like what my mom said.
Idk.
Guess i just got to wait.
Cheers,
Kenneth.
Everyone has been talking about starting afresh, keeping their new year resolutions, and everything else.
But who really keeps to what they say?
I'm adapting to the poly lifestyle, but sadly to say, i am not contented.
It is going to be a year since i once stepped out of secondary school and came into poly.
Much has changed in this one year's time. And I have seen many other types of people that are not commonly seen in secondary school.
Ask me again if i ever regretted choosing poly, and i would tell you no.
Why? I can't answer you now. But i know i am right to follow my guts.
After numerous illnesses, i'm starting to feel scared.
There are still many other things that i haven't try off.
And i definitely do not want to end my life so fast.
Nevertheless, I always feel that the night is lonely.
When there is no one to accompany, or to voice out to,
the feeling is terrible.
I would really wish to have someone whom i can turn to when i am always down,
and i need some spare time off for heart-to-heart talks.
I may not be good in speaking, but i would prefer someone to start the topic and get into the mood.
Whats the point talking so much while the other person is giggling away?
It just makes me feel horrible.
However, i do not want to appear as a pest to the people i talk to, over to become over-reliant,
and thus, i tend to push them away sometimes.
Sometimes in the night i really ponder. If i could change my life, how would i change it?
And when i changed it, would i really be happy?
Cheers,
Kenneth.
To baby,
Sorry for my attitude today and everything.
Couldn't kept my cool again and went crazy.
Guess i am being paranoid again plus the fact that i did not slept well.
Sorry. Forgive me alrights?
